The Fertility Journey: To Test or Not to Test

As I sit down to write this, I am on day 32 of my cycle. Yes, day 32 and I am late by all means. I know that I have been under considerable stress as of the past few months, and that stress can delay periods. However, stress has ALWAYS been a trigger for me to have a period, even if it's within days of just ending the last one.

I had spent ovulation week at the hospital with my son having his Video-EEG done, which meant no sex during ovulation week for me. Hmmm, maybe my partner does have the super-sperm that he's been declaring all along. From what I've read sperm can last in fertile fluids for up to 5 days. But given my odds, let's be realistic about how likely this is!

I have no real pregnancy type symptoms to declare at this point, although I have been drinking gallon upon gallon of water lately and can't seem to get enough food. No vomiting, no sore boobs, nada. However, the endo that is within my torso muscles has not begun to change color as yet as it does just before the onset of my period monthly. This morning I had thought my period was going to show up, but it was just rectal bleeding. Maybe my period has decided to come out the wrong hole instead.

So I sit here playing a game much like "Does he love me or not" that we play with the daisies but have substituted "To test or not". At this point in time, I'm pretty fragile emotionally, and just don't want to go through the disappointment of not having the results I hope for. If no period shows up this weekend, then I might break down and buy the EPT.

Time will reveal all...